As the rhythm of the Christian year leads us toward Golgotha, we find ourselves in a state of mourning, of awaiting something.
The state of “awaiting” is unsettling, like the cold in the spring. You want it to be warm but it isn’t. The sun is shining and it looks warm, but there is a chill in the air and then there is the wind. You can’t relax. It does not bring comfort but agitation.
We might feel like moving. We want to get out and run or walk; start getting ready for summer. This is good for the body and the soul. It is not “doing,” but “not doing” that makes us so tired these days.
When we feel that we are losing our connection to the spiritual world, and to our true selves, we feel “depressed.” Loss of the Spirit is depression at its core. When we have so much to do that we feel overwhelmed, and when the onslaught of news is just too much for us, we can do one thing: we can make one minute of space/time for inner silence. We can say one prayer. We don’t have to say many prayers to be effective. One prayer has tremendous power.
Everything in the world will work to prevent us from doing this. The possibility of awakening depends on our ability to say “yes” to this moment and not to run from it.
Imagine the place where you are right now, and everything around you, every tree and rock, the earth below you and the sky above; imagine that they were waiting for this moment when you would finally turn and come to peace and say, “thank you.”
The poet David Whyte says it beautifully, “Everything is waiting for you.”
by Carol Kelly